I am not usually at a loss for words but here I am starring at a blank page not knowing where to start. So I guess I can start by saying I am grateful, I mean beyond grateful for this opportunity. At first thought, I can say I have never been chosen for anything in my life and to an extent that is true. Being chosen to be blessed within a community is nothing I ever experienced or expected. But in the grander part of my life I was chosen, three times actually to be the mother of the children I am so incredibly grateful to be called mom by. I was never given a chance to conceive but I was still able to find my way to motherhood. I spent countless years being a foster mother. It was a rough road but even rougher for most all of the children I gave pieces of my heart to. 8 years ago I finally was given my first chance to feel what motherhood would be like without having to say good bye, to a child that would forever be able to call me mommy. A few years later she gained two siblings. My oldest has had a really rough start at life. The kind of beginning that no child should endure but today even with her struggles she thrives and I am thankful. She and her siblings are my blessings no matter how hard the days are. I had been unable to work outside of the home for years so I could be present for all of their needs.
So far this winter we struggled to get our old heating system working just as the hot water heater died. That’s how it goes though isn’t it? When a pebble falls sometimes they all start to fall. I remain positive though, encourage and filled with love because I always find a way.
I worry about Christmas and the three birthdays that follow right after, but I don’t show them my worry.
This year things have gotten so financially strained that I decided to turn my Facebook into a page that I could hope create a business out of, something to give my family a chance to be in a better place while I am still present for their every joy and every struggle.
