Crisis

Hello I hope all is well and getting better! I am a young man who lives in New York City in the Bronx . I was living with a very close person to me my best friend. Weve been together since high school days And had plenty of visions and aspirations together. As time passed we never got to do any of it! I mean great ideas for movies and games and entertainment.. I started to noticed the loyalty that was there with him. Example him not telling me things that he should of spoke up on ,  not being present or talking to me after I got stabbed. Sending nudes to a x of mine hoping things will work out between them two, I found out by the girl and asked him about, he confessed. So many times I let it slide and over extend myself loving unconditionally becuase that was my brother from another mother ! The closet person to me after my mom passed. The only person I would hang out with. Up untill recently 2019 till this present day I've found out more stuff that caused me to up and leave. Once again I had a girl living with us. She was my girl. We broke up and she had left the house hold. Come to find out he still texting and hanging out with her behind my back. I got stabbed at the end of 2019 where he wasn't talking to me and I was completely alone .. time has passed and one day I'm about to leave out... who do I see once I open the house door...my x and him.. I nearly fainted like what just happened. I let that slide . I end up dating her again and start talking with my x best friend. Not to long after I end the relationship it was like a week into it because I got with her for the wrong reasons. She leaves and this time it was nasty how it ended. I needed my x best friend to give her back clothes because now the police was involved. I take a break from being in the house cause of all the negativity. I stood at one of my good friend house with his wife and kid. I get a call from my x best friend that he wants to take the room that I just painted. I of course said no and that's when it blew up. We stopped talking again. I come home and find out I'm missing items from my room and that my x girlfriend best friend was there hanging out with them . She was apart of the nasty ending. So I called the cops to remove her and confronting my x best friend and asked what happen to my phones and he said I don't know. I knew he lied to me right there and then. I asked his girl friend the same thing. You know happen to my items she said idk, same thing. I said just leave me alone I'm gonna heal . I locked myself in the room and let them have all of the house.  Removed myself and energy from the situation. As I'm doing that I still would buy stuff for me to eat and drink. Come to find out they eating and drinking my stuff. After that I completely locked myself up not using  no fridge or stove, only outside food. Soon after I invested in a mini fridge . The whole situation just got more ugly  he got new friends and would bring them over and just start bad mouthing about me and laughing at and my decisions... I was hoping things would change but it was obvious there is no love .  Nearly lost my mind but I received comfort from the divine and He has given me insight on who I am and what really happen. I started to go to school for music at SAE institute (still attending ) and embrace me and my every wish . There was one problem I'm still in the energy draining   Place . I then was informed by my co worker at my job ( river bank state park - part time job 15 hr ) about van life! He showed me and I knew right there and then that's what ima do ! Ima Jump our the window into a van! 
I immediately searched for one and I found one ! Thank God. The price was 1200  that then sold it to me for 800 ( they was aware of my situation and that I was using the money I got from my school grant ) the van is now at a machanic being tuned up and I am watching van life videos like no tomorrow and I would love to convert my van into a comfortable home / studio. I am asking you to support me as I embark on this journey of God knows how many steps. Forgive me for such a lengthy explanation. I look forward to hearing from you all as well ! Not just the donation. We all live on this planet. I thank you all for your help , concerns and over all your love. I am leaving the 30 of September I cannot stay here any longer  with people who's pointing the finger at me like I'm the cause of this. Love you all