Does Jesus Love Me

Hello my breathen my name is Rachel and I am a Cristian who is having a very difficult time and I don’t necessarily  know if throwing money at the situation will help because I in in dyer need of help and I have been trying for years to get the help I need,I have been suffering for along time trying to get the housing I need It’s hard to explain all of this I am mentally challenged and I have lived successfully on my own before I have a fixed income and can pay a small amount of rent, but would like to buy my own place I have been homeless before more than once I truly hate it but know how to do it. I am sorry if this is all over the place; I grew up in a very abusive environment and I am homeless now, living on my mothers porch and she likes me to work for her but I am having deep trauma responses to her and I am acting out and things get broken sometimes I hate acting like this and she yells at me and sometimes I urinate my pants and bad childhood memories come back to me it’s a really bad environment I know when I live on my own and take care of my symptoms I do well I Love the Lord I love reading my Bible and I stick to myself and do not have many friend due to what I recently went through I tried to get the help I needed through a church and recovery group and that did not got well at all I have been to county and county all over California trying to get the help I need and have not been successful no body likes me and I know Jesus said they hatred me before they hated you because if you were of the world they would love you I am not quoting that exactly but it was something like that no body likes me because I am challenged I have brain injuries and mental illnesses from sever child abuse growing up but I can take care of my self in health environments. I tried to kill myself in July 2015 I had a terrible accident where I tried to commit suicide and jumped off a 3 story balcony in Ontario Ca and I was taken to Arrowhead hospital in San  Bernardo I am sorry my brain is weak to fix my aorta in my heart but they could not do the surgery and they had to air helicopter lifted me to Loma Linda hospital to do my surgery’s I dislocated my knee shaddred my shoulder tore my aorta and broken my pelvis in three places anyway that’s not what this is about I already did a go fund me about that I lived Praise the Most High I am suffering and need a home to live in I am tired of ruffing it I would like to be a health Christian who could hold a job again and go to church on Sunday's and have normal friends and be somewhat normal before I pass away can you please help me. The reason my email says Gezina is because it’s one of my middle names.