As most of you know, I am currently stuck between a rock and a hard place and have been for a very long time.
I recently broke bones in both of my feet, microfractures along the Cuboid and Metatarsals, as well as dealing with several disabilities that the government refuses to acknowledge due to my age.
Physically:
Fibromyalgia
Tendinitis
Carpal Tunnel
Neuropathy
Bulging Discs
Scholiosis
Diabetes
PCOS
Narcolepsy
CPTSD
Emotionally:
ADHD
Bipolar Disorder with Manic Depression
Borderline Personality Disorder (verifying)
Autism (verifying)
AviPD
More pending a renewed psyche evaluation
And because of all of these conditions, being able to work at a normal job (retail, food industry, etc) has been impossible. Not to mention they barely gave hours nor offer health benefits. I am in a position where I can not work in most public situations for long periods of time due to both mental and physical state, as I can not stand upright for more than 30 minutes at a time and due to the physical and emotional abuse I've endured all 34+ years of my life, my masking abilities are no longer working as well as I need them to in order to be able to function as a normal, working adult. Or as normal as someone like me can be anyway.
I live in an area that doesn't believe in mental health, where the medical practices want to bleed you dry rather than give you a proper diagnoses. It took 30+ years to be diagnosed with PCOS when I was told I had: cancer, endometriosis, you're just fat, and so on and so forth, for example.
I've also had ADHD and CPTSD since I was 12, and the DPN or whatever she calls herself that I'm dealing with that handles my medication is determined to say I don't have either of it and I'm just depressed. I was institutionalized once for 3 weeks and within five minutes of talking to a Psychiatrist there they told me straight out I, at the very least, am extremely bipolar. Both doctors tried to put me on lithium, which my family is very adverse to due to allergies (they call hallucinating to the point of violent tendencies for self preservation is apparently NOT an allergy???) and so I am currently in a situation where I'm trying to find a medical professional who isn't just some watered down school nurse with a fancy piece of paper stating shes passed by the skin of her teeth.
I've had a therapist verbally abuse me and got her fired when it was reported. I've had another therapist actually say I deserved to be abused because I wasn't mentally ill, I was just acting out for attention, and another got so frightened of how deep the rabbit hole of my current mental state was send me to a Behavioral Facility for 3 weeks to bleed my insurance dry. They wanted to keep me longer but I signed myself out after 3 weeks because the suicidal tendencies I had were getting worse and they were drugging me with 32 pills a day and shooting me up with so much insulin it was making me extremely sick.
The area I live in does not care about anyone under the age of 65. I have been living in a constant state of pain and neglect due to the fact that my home state sees your gender, your age, and your weight and now no longer will accept that there are causes for situations that would allow anyone to apply for disability. I had lawyers laugh in my face even with years of extensive medical history simply for the fact that at 34, there's no way in hell I can qualify out here, even if I was told I may be wheelchair bound at 40 due to the fact that doctors have misdiagnosed me and put me on medication that exacerbated the fibro and neuropathy.
I need help to get out. I need help to apply. I have been trying to do this on my own for so long and I just can't do it anymore. I am on my last piece of stability and I can no longer afford medication for even diabetes or my heart. I need assistance in any way that isn't 'free help from the government' because Tennessee's 'free help' has shown to be a perfect example of 'you get what you pay for' and I'm paying for it dearly with toxic medication they gaslight me about putting me on as well as doctors who just haven't cared about my actual health. The only one who did got cancer and has since passed away so I am in a STRUGGLE situation right now.
Sharing this would help me greatly. Donating would help me more.
If more people were aware how awful the medical side of living with confirmed disability, but not being recognized by the government is I think it'd really shed a light as to how corrupt the world is right now. No one wants to acknowledge you can't work because if you don't make the 1% richer, you're costing them money and so go back to work regardless of the Monty Python level of it's a fleshwound that you have.
I want to thank everyone who has already started to help or offered help, you guys are the absolute best and while I've failed at every endeavour due to mental blocks or physical impairments, I'm still trying my best to do something if anything with my life. I am and will always struggle with everything I have been dealing with, but I know if I can just get out and get to where I can actually have proper medical help I know for a fact that I could do it.
I haven't been able to find a place to stay yet, these funds are simply an attempt to raise money for movers, the move, gas for the move, and enough to cover at least a month or two of rent wherever I do end up staying. My goal is for Virgina by the end of the next two years but I have to see where everything goes and if I'll end up on my own or with a room-mate.
If I could even just raise money to help pay for my botched up medical here I'd feel as if I'm moving forward, but I'm still struggling to find any professionals that will take me without insurance. It has come to the poitn that I am probably going to have to commute 3 hours daily to work a barely viable part-time retail job and I know that my body will not be able to handle it.
thank you again for all of your assistance.
