Dear Friend's, Stranger's & People of the Interwebs, This place was my Grandparent's Home. The place my fathers Ghost walks the most. As much as I strongly dislike asking anyone for help... here I am. It's time I let go and ask you all... Would you like to help me ?
Some of you may know my story. Some of you don't. Some of you think you know... but you have no idea. Well I have been at a point for the last 10 years where I just want to go home, Garden and visit my dad's ghost until my time on this earth ends. That's it. My goal was by the summer of 2025, sell my house in Hornell and use that money as a down payment. Currently their house is under other ownership since Grandpa passed; We've met and been in communication. They know I'm headed that way. Plans have changed and I did not reach my goal of last summer. After helping Bobbert raise these 4 boys of ours, getting 2 through college, multiple cars x's too many, life, more life & bla bla bla I cannot sell this house at this time as the boys will be staying here. So I am starting at zero dollar$ as of right now.
I did not want this to be negative but I am beyond exhausted & too many bad memories here where I'm at. I'm going nowhere fast staying stuck the last 30 years. I feel trapped like I'll never get out. I don't feel like I belong here, never have. I plan on selling a bunch of my stuff's. If its not going to my boys...its gone. Peace outtie scouttie. Lots of things and whatever tie-dye shirts are left, I'll list everything for sale. Get rid of it all, I need nothing here.
Anyone feel like loaning me $25,000 to get me started with the paperwork ? I will pay you back with reasonable interest... contracts n all. Might take me 10 years but I'll get there. I strongly dislike owing others anything especially money. *No funny business nor weirdos please. The world is on fire enough already as is. If ya wanna donate $5 a month to me until I reach my goal...Great thanks. If ya got $1 a month until I get there... cool I'll appreciate ya. If you have zero dollars I'll appreciate ya for sharing this, sometimes strangers like to help other good people. I have PayPal if this platform is not your jam. If you happen to be 1 of the handful of people who owe me money... Now would be a great time to return the favor.
I have a whole plan for the next 40-50 years of my life. The sooner I get started the better off well all be. Staying here continuously complaining is getting me nowhere. I have books to finish writing, 100s of artsy craftsy things to finish, new flowers to plant, more rock walls to build & business of my own to mind. Those of you who are already in my life, have been good to me & to those of you who help me get where I'm going... yall will be invited to any BBQ's I have when I get there. Sept/Oct around my birthday sounds nice as fall is the most beautiful time of the year to visit that area of the state.
To the rest of you who have done me wrong... well good luck with all your happy horse shit. I'll pray for ya to fix your own soul. May your children break the cycle of toxicity.
I simply can not take anymore crap or negativity any longer ! I'm beyond tired of all the drama of this town. It's beyond pointless and a waste of my time and talents. I am tired of allowing others to slow me down, tell me what I will or will not be doing with MY LIFE, MY DREAMS & MY FUTURE. I just want to be left alone in my peace. If you don't have good intentions or are adding positive vibes to my space... just stay away from me.
I want to go home. I want to visit my dad's grave whenever I want. I want to get to know that side of my family before they don't have any time left. I was hidden from them as a child, that time with them was robbed from me. I didn't get much time as an adult to do that before my grandparents were gone. My heart deeply wishes that were different. My life was not easy nor fair. I just want peace. I deserve that much.
I have painting work here through this fall. I have painting work out there already lined up to get me started when I get out there. I have family I can stay with until I get this house. I can still travel back here to paint as well. If any family want to talk about investing in a Great thing... We could talk about that too. Anything to get me far away from this town I'm currently stuck in.
I will forever be Grateful to those of you who help me get there. Peace and Happiness to all and Thanks Muchly,
Jess Hay
