

August Update
Thank you so much (My Dallas Cousin!) for your recent contribution to my fundraiser…
I know it’s going as slow as molasses! I have been a little timid about pushing the need for support lately but I am STILL trying to cover funeral expenses that I had to pay out from my remaining savings last year and the repercussions thereof (my ongoing expenses while I try to catch up) and I so appreciate any assistance anyone can send my way.
My recovery has indeed been slow and I still feel almost as if I am still moving in slow motion. Although I may LOOK fine and things seem pretty normal on the outside, I still tire easily and still my face, shoulder, arm and right hand have not regained full sensation. These new disabilities since the stroke, along with the speech disability, have still limited me from “my old self” as I still require some assistance… cooking and various tasks and I have very low energy/endurance, tho life is improving overall.
My capacity for the kind of work I have done in the past has become very limited and as a result, I'm still behind on all of my bills, my website of 20+ years and all of the structure for my little business has gone offline, so I no longer have that income stream... It is still challenging trying to make expenses every month living off of SS - as well as $ to preserve the belongings I still have in storage—various other antiques, Mom’s cookbooks and paintings, my grandmother’s paintings and hand painted China (and my paintings other artworks, my studio and library) and other precious belongings (maybe precious to me anyway…). I’ve been selling off a a few belongings such as some of Mom’s turquoise and (some) antiques here and there where I can to scrape a few dollars together…
However, I have been adapting a bit more to “getting out there” by volunteering a few hours a week now at the Fine Arts Museum of Sedona (FAMoS) and really loving it - reacquainting myself with friends from the past and meeting new art lovers - I find it very fulfilling. Stop by if you are in Sedona…
In addition, just a reminder - I am still fundraising to get back on track with the Valentina Blackhorse Project and will post the link below if you would like to contribute directly to my sculpture project.
Thank you so much if you ARE so inclined! I really appreciate it and it is so encouraging!

Just a little update...
Right now I am trying to cover some of my little bills that I have not been able to cover in all of this time and are being turned over to collections...
I still owe for the ambulance ride about another $165
I still owe about 65 to the bloodwork lab
and my monthly amount of around $500 to the hospital that I haven't been able to put anything towards during the last few months...
I finally was able to get out of my overdraft with the bank yesterday when my social security check came thru, but it had been cut by nearly $400 and left me unable to make rent this month, and I am still essentially unemployed... so anything anyone can send my way at this time would be very much appreciated!
Thank you so much!

5.23.25.
Dirty laundry and albatrosses
It might be people have become a bit hesitant about me and my causes now, or perhaps a bit unsure or afraid that I am not that same ol’ Bevé I was before the heart event and stroke that took place in April of ‘24 - and truly to some extent I’m not the same. My words don’t quite fit together the same anymore when I speak - it’s a little bit more difficult for me to verbalize now so sometimes it’s hard to get sense of what I’m actually trying to get across at times. It is hard to listen to me. I will never narrate or interview again due to the TBI. not that public speaking was ever my forté, but It is very difficult for me to even read out loud now as well. I hope to write, produce and maybe direct again… but we shall see… Often I speak so softly and slowly and sometimes with a bit of a slur (even without wine-assist!) that many times I choose not to speak at all now (which is pretty hard for ME to do!!)
BUT…
The right half of my face, mouth, shoulder and my right arm and hand still remain overall numb and, with the extreme fatigue I continue to experience, things remain increasingly frustrating because the more it is necessary for me to gain ground now, the farther behind I slip it seems. (…it feels kind of like a “running counter-dolly-zoom shot” for those of you from the film world…). I just haven’t seem to have been able to get the traction I need.
Financially, the tsunami really swept in beginning last autumn when I found out one of my primary donors (who happens to be one of my dearest friends as well) received a diagnosis of Non-Hodgkin lymphoma and went into treatment right at the same time as I broke my wrist. Contributions to keep me afloat and in the studio working on my sculpture started to fall off immediately. (Plus, it was rather difficult to continue with the broken wrist as well.) BUT… Almost immediately after that I needed urgent dental work which ran several hundred dollars more than I originally expected and that unexpectedly overdrew one of my banking accounts - which I then wasn’t able to resolve, resulting in having to close the 30-year-old account…
Then the real domino effect started. Still unable to really reliably drive at that time and not bringing in an income, it all began to unravel with being unable to pay the full amount on my credit card bills. Then, I was unable to keep up with my hospital bills. I was still making some kind of payment on whatever I could when I could, but It wasn’t too much longer before I wasn’t able to pay anything at all.
First world problems I guess for somebody who is used to having amble resources to fall back on in the past - but I still am feeling very fortunate for what I do have now - at least being old enough to have social security to pay my rent and car insurance and a little bit towards food for now - and having somebody like Terry in my life who still shops and cooks for me and, for the longest time before I could drive again, could reliably deliver me to my physical therapy and doctor appointments. However, now I no longer have the resources for the basic self-care I was accustomed to. Sometimes that’s a bit of an adjustment.
I have been overdrawn on my main bank account for over a week now, even as I challenged myself to do better financially without having ask or bother anyone for assistance again, doing what I can - but honestly, my capacity is comparatively limited - I used to be a capable producer in media, a production editor, graphic designer and layout artist. With my essentially limp right hand, typing is slower, but not impossible. I haven’t had any of that kind of work come in for ViaMedia now in quite some time - I have been doing a little bit of pre-production on my own for the independent film I have been planning in New Mexico, (and a little bit writing on the other script I have also been working on for a number years now!) but at this point, it all remains pretty much a pipe dream. But prior to that time, for the last few years of Mom's life, my main occupation was overseeing the daily caretaking needs for my mom - with a lot of pet-sitting in between, so I’ve been able to pick up a little bit of that kind of thing since January off and on. This gives me a little bit of pocket change - but not enough to pay my hospital bills or get me back on an even keel.
Even last year, when I still had a little tiny bit of my nest egg remaining, I was clutching on to the Intention to find my little home/condo and furnish it with all the belongings I had gathered from from all of my past homes over the years... (along with belongings selected and moved from Texas from my parents’ home which I had been used to having in my "aura" all my life - hoping to now enjoy having all of those belongings for the rest of my life ...not to have to let go of everything)… So over the last year I really had my heart set on:
✔️ Paying off my friends and Mom’s expenses with this fundraiser ✔️ Completion of the sculpture ✔️ Finding my own space home/office/studio (and not losing all of my belongings). Perhaps even being able to operate the Bluebonnet Club - a healing space with a peaceful ambience, furnished with Western art and antiques... (The idea which I sent to some of my donors and friends, but it never caught on.) All of it seems to be such a pyrrhic effort now. I have invested so much in the creation the sculpture which I intend to donate and which I now cannot afford to finish (but I did have the $ fall back on at the beginning of the project). I rent a furnished room near the sculpture studio -that I have been away from for six months now- and that tiny room does not have space for all of my belongings, which I have been storing for that home I can no longer afford…
Yes, I can challenge myself to do more, and I will, but I am back to the place where I am asking for your assistance to get by at this time. I am still reaching for my goal of 10000 dollars to try to pay my mother’s funeral costs - which was the original intention of this fundraiser before my health incident ballooned my financial needs even more! It is my intention now to put up the contents of my storage sheds for auction.
Maybe sometime soon I will also be able to get back to work on the sculpture...
Anyone who is able to Zelle me directly to get me out this urgent overdraft of $75 at this time - I would soooooo very much appreciate it! And, as always, I am so grateful for your help and assistance and everything everyone has done to help me out (both financially and otherwise) through all of the drama.
It is so appreciated.

Your donations over the last year have meant so much, and I am still fundraising towards my $10K goal to cover outstanding expenses.
Additionally, the Valentina Blackhorse sculpture fundraiser is ongoing at http://spot.fund/rfsbcwsc.
Thank you for your continued support!

Belongings...
Here are a number of Belongings I will be listing in the inventory...

(there are a couple of photos of me sitting at Brian Walker's opening that don't belong in the mix there!)
These items will be available locally - around the Sedona/Verde Valley area - and many can be shipped as well.
More to come.
Doug Wade
$50 • Recent donation
Lisa Dahl
$1,000 • Top donation
Beverly Bourne
$200 • First donation

Lori Lively is the organizer of this fundraiser

Fundraising for

August Update
Thank you so much (My Dallas Cousin!) for your recent contribution to my fundraiser…
I know it’s going as slow as molasses! I have been a little timid about pushing the need for support lately but I am STILL trying to cover funeral expenses that I had to pay out from my remaining savings last year and the repercussions thereof (my ongoing expenses while I try to catch up) and I so appreciate any assistance anyone can send my way.
My recovery has indeed been slow and I still feel almost as if I am still moving in slow motion. Although I may LOOK fine and things seem pretty normal on the outside, I still tire easily and still my face, shoulder, arm and right hand have not regained full sensation. These new disabilities since the stroke, along with the speech disability, have still limited me from “my old self” as I still require some assistance… cooking and various tasks and I have very low energy/endurance, tho life is improving overall.
My capacity for the kind of work I have done in the past has become very limited and as a result, I'm still behind on all of my bills, my website of 20+ years and all of the structure for my little business has gone offline, so I no longer have that income stream... It is still challenging trying to make expenses every month living off of SS - as well as $ to preserve the belongings I still have in storage—various other antiques, Mom’s cookbooks and paintings, my grandmother’s paintings and hand painted China (and my paintings other artworks, my studio and library) and other precious belongings (maybe precious to me anyway…). I’ve been selling off a a few belongings such as some of Mom’s turquoise and (some) antiques here and there where I can to scrape a few dollars together…
However, I have been adapting a bit more to “getting out there” by volunteering a few hours a week now at the Fine Arts Museum of Sedona (FAMoS) and really loving it - reacquainting myself with friends from the past and meeting new art lovers - I find it very fulfilling. Stop by if you are in Sedona…
In addition, just a reminder - I am still fundraising to get back on track with the Valentina Blackhorse Project and will post the link below if you would like to contribute directly to my sculpture project.
Thank you so much if you ARE so inclined! I really appreciate it and it is so encouraging!

Just a little update...
Right now I am trying to cover some of my little bills that I have not been able to cover in all of this time and are being turned over to collections...
I still owe for the ambulance ride about another $165
I still owe about 65 to the bloodwork lab
and my monthly amount of around $500 to the hospital that I haven't been able to put anything towards during the last few months...
I finally was able to get out of my overdraft with the bank yesterday when my social security check came thru, but it had been cut by nearly $400 and left me unable to make rent this month, and I am still essentially unemployed... so anything anyone can send my way at this time would be very much appreciated!
Thank you so much!

5.23.25.
Dirty laundry and albatrosses
It might be people have become a bit hesitant about me and my causes now, or perhaps a bit unsure or afraid that I am not that same ol’ Bevé I was before the heart event and stroke that took place in April of ‘24 - and truly to some extent I’m not the same. My words don’t quite fit together the same anymore when I speak - it’s a little bit more difficult for me to verbalize now so sometimes it’s hard to get sense of what I’m actually trying to get across at times. It is hard to listen to me. I will never narrate or interview again due to the TBI. not that public speaking was ever my forté, but It is very difficult for me to even read out loud now as well. I hope to write, produce and maybe direct again… but we shall see… Often I speak so softly and slowly and sometimes with a bit of a slur (even without wine-assist!) that many times I choose not to speak at all now (which is pretty hard for ME to do!!)
BUT…
The right half of my face, mouth, shoulder and my right arm and hand still remain overall numb and, with the extreme fatigue I continue to experience, things remain increasingly frustrating because the more it is necessary for me to gain ground now, the farther behind I slip it seems. (…it feels kind of like a “running counter-dolly-zoom shot” for those of you from the film world…). I just haven’t seem to have been able to get the traction I need.
Financially, the tsunami really swept in beginning last autumn when I found out one of my primary donors (who happens to be one of my dearest friends as well) received a diagnosis of Non-Hodgkin lymphoma and went into treatment right at the same time as I broke my wrist. Contributions to keep me afloat and in the studio working on my sculpture started to fall off immediately. (Plus, it was rather difficult to continue with the broken wrist as well.) BUT… Almost immediately after that I needed urgent dental work which ran several hundred dollars more than I originally expected and that unexpectedly overdrew one of my banking accounts - which I then wasn’t able to resolve, resulting in having to close the 30-year-old account…
Then the real domino effect started. Still unable to really reliably drive at that time and not bringing in an income, it all began to unravel with being unable to pay the full amount on my credit card bills. Then, I was unable to keep up with my hospital bills. I was still making some kind of payment on whatever I could when I could, but It wasn’t too much longer before I wasn’t able to pay anything at all.
First world problems I guess for somebody who is used to having amble resources to fall back on in the past - but I still am feeling very fortunate for what I do have now - at least being old enough to have social security to pay my rent and car insurance and a little bit towards food for now - and having somebody like Terry in my life who still shops and cooks for me and, for the longest time before I could drive again, could reliably deliver me to my physical therapy and doctor appointments. However, now I no longer have the resources for the basic self-care I was accustomed to. Sometimes that’s a bit of an adjustment.
I have been overdrawn on my main bank account for over a week now, even as I challenged myself to do better financially without having ask or bother anyone for assistance again, doing what I can - but honestly, my capacity is comparatively limited - I used to be a capable producer in media, a production editor, graphic designer and layout artist. With my essentially limp right hand, typing is slower, but not impossible. I haven’t had any of that kind of work come in for ViaMedia now in quite some time - I have been doing a little bit of pre-production on my own for the independent film I have been planning in New Mexico, (and a little bit writing on the other script I have also been working on for a number years now!) but at this point, it all remains pretty much a pipe dream. But prior to that time, for the last few years of Mom's life, my main occupation was overseeing the daily caretaking needs for my mom - with a lot of pet-sitting in between, so I’ve been able to pick up a little bit of that kind of thing since January off and on. This gives me a little bit of pocket change - but not enough to pay my hospital bills or get me back on an even keel.
Even last year, when I still had a little tiny bit of my nest egg remaining, I was clutching on to the Intention to find my little home/condo and furnish it with all the belongings I had gathered from from all of my past homes over the years... (along with belongings selected and moved from Texas from my parents’ home which I had been used to having in my "aura" all my life - hoping to now enjoy having all of those belongings for the rest of my life ...not to have to let go of everything)… So over the last year I really had my heart set on:
✔️ Paying off my friends and Mom’s expenses with this fundraiser ✔️ Completion of the sculpture ✔️ Finding my own space home/office/studio (and not losing all of my belongings). Perhaps even being able to operate the Bluebonnet Club - a healing space with a peaceful ambience, furnished with Western art and antiques... (The idea which I sent to some of my donors and friends, but it never caught on.) All of it seems to be such a pyrrhic effort now. I have invested so much in the creation the sculpture which I intend to donate and which I now cannot afford to finish (but I did have the $ fall back on at the beginning of the project). I rent a furnished room near the sculpture studio -that I have been away from for six months now- and that tiny room does not have space for all of my belongings, which I have been storing for that home I can no longer afford…
Yes, I can challenge myself to do more, and I will, but I am back to the place where I am asking for your assistance to get by at this time. I am still reaching for my goal of 10000 dollars to try to pay my mother’s funeral costs - which was the original intention of this fundraiser before my health incident ballooned my financial needs even more! It is my intention now to put up the contents of my storage sheds for auction.
Maybe sometime soon I will also be able to get back to work on the sculpture...
Anyone who is able to Zelle me directly to get me out this urgent overdraft of $75 at this time - I would soooooo very much appreciate it! And, as always, I am so grateful for your help and assistance and everything everyone has done to help me out (both financially and otherwise) through all of the drama.
It is so appreciated.

Your donations over the last year have meant so much, and I am still fundraising towards my $10K goal to cover outstanding expenses.
Additionally, the Valentina Blackhorse sculpture fundraiser is ongoing at http://spot.fund/rfsbcwsc.
Thank you for your continued support!

Belongings...
Here are a number of Belongings I will be listing in the inventory...

(there are a couple of photos of me sitting at Brian Walker's opening that don't belong in the mix there!)
These items will be available locally - around the Sedona/Verde Valley area - and many can be shipped as well.
More to come.

Lori Lively is the organizer of this fundraiser
