A little over 2 years ago, I went through something that, idk..was traumatic, to say the least. And it's also something I don't talk about much, and I wasn't even sure if I was going to add it but I feel like I need to start here if I'm going to do this. My best friend was murdered, right in front of me, by his own dad. He died in my arms, as I tried to put pressure on his wound and save his life. The last thing that he said, was that he didn't want to die. He died a few seconds later. And in a couple of weeks, I have to go to his murder trial to testify. And this is sort of where everything else comes in. I wasn't doing too well after his murder and I couldn't shake the way I was feeling and I had to get out of North carolina. So me and my fiancee came here to Seattle. I wanted to live here my entire life and it's just everything I thought it would be. I'm so in love with it. But when I got here I was made to face a lot of unfortunate struggles that I should never have had to go through especially after dealing with what I had just dealt with. I'm not going to go into detail but I was held hostage for 12 hours, by someone who had been awake for nearly 2 weeks and they were seeing things that weren't there and I just happened to be a part of it. I was kicked over and over in the head and in the belly and the neck. I had a broken eye socket, bruised ribs, concussions. I 100% knew that I wasn't making it out of there. But of course I found my strength and used it. This is getting a bit long so I'm going to try and just cut it short but during that hostage, it turns out, I was pregnant and I lost mine and my fiance's baby because of it. I was destroyed. One thing led to another and everything was just too much and I wouldn't let anyone help me. I literally trained myself not to think about or focus on anything that resembled any kind of emotional pain. Finally, I went and got some help and I get better everyday.
The only thing is due to the traumatic events, my body was under enough stress to develop an immune disorder, and I was diagnosed with lupus. It has slowed me down in some ways and I've spent the better part of a year in and out of the hospital. Sometimes I have to ask help with remembering things. It's been a challenge but when I will make it through. We just found out also that my mom is very sick. I can't talk much about this because I just can't. But it is the hardest thing of all to say the least. Anyway, I am supposed to go see her whenever I go to the murder trial coming up. But with everything going on and my health. And the stress of the trial and the financial anything that I may need during it and while visiting my mom it is all just so overwhelming.
I don't really know how to ask for help with the things we need except just to be one about it so please don't think I'm being greedy or take offense I'm just going to go for it.
I would be grateful for even $1 of your help. I don't really know what to say besides we are struggling financially pretty badly. And lots of things are coming up and going on where we are going to need the money and we just don't have it so anything helps. For example the money would be spent on other things needed like,
Food-my food stamps were shut off and I cannot apply for six more months because of an incident where someone found my North Carolina EBT card and tried to use it. So I was accused of trying to use EBT in two states and they would not hear what I had to say and I cannot reapply for 6 months so we honestly are struggling with food as well.
Home- before some of these new struggles came to light, we were fortunate enough to move into a new apartment. But it has been very difficult since. And in the move we lost the majority of our things I can't go into detail about that right now but whenever I say I need everything. I'm not exaggerating. I need any and all things that anyone can give. Kitchen things, cleaning supplies, area rugs, if you have one big area rug for a living room that would be amazing, lamp, blankets, everything.
I also need clothes very badly. I've been looking at clothing banks and I made some progress but I may buy myself and my fiance at least take a jacket or a nice pair of shoes that will be comfortable on our feet because we have to start all over with everything.
If anyone has any extra makeup or skincare, shower supplies, we also don't have a radio or TV and I understand that those things aren't necessities, I just thought if anyone had an extra, i would be grateful.
Thank you so much if you have stayed with me this long. I'm also sorry if you have LOL. I've never put my story out there like this before and it's kind of empowering and scary at the same time and I just hope that you all know that I am forever grateful and I'm not just asking to be asking. It really did take a lot for me. And I hope that I encourage someone else I need help, to ask.
Mae
