To family and friends, and everyone else who does not know me....Hello. My Name is Holly, and I've come to you all (humbled) to ask for help with my surgery. It took me a long time to build up the courage to ask for help. Out of embarrassment, but mostly because I felt like I did not deserve it. Now one of my biggest fears have become a reality. I have to have all of my Teeth pulled, and because my sinuses run so close to my teeth. I have to undergo this surgery. I do have Medicaid as well but unfortunately it only covers so much. Now my health is in danger. It hurts when I eat certain things, and I definitely do not smile.
I can't run from it anymore. For years I've numbed myself with drugs. After years of abuse it became a lifestyle. Not only did I hurt myself I've hurt others. I was not living just existing. But how can you really care about anything when you can't feel anything at all. I always say drugs have never left me, but they're the reason why everyone has. I know I can't change the past I can only try to make tomorrow better. With that said today I live a different life but still struggle behind the smile I once had. This small piece to some is the largest piece I feel holds me back from having the confidence that I should. I have overcome obstacles and climbed in mountains but yet this is still a road block. I'm not looking for anyone's pity just understanding that I stand tall in the woman I am today no longer wanting to be reminded of my past by my appearance or others perception. My addiction no longer defines who I am today. So if anything I'm always down for some emotional support too. I am truly blessed and grateful for any type of support I get. Thank you for taking time out of your day to read this. Also if I do happen to go over to my goal. I plan on donating the rest to "In Bloom Foundation".
