Peace and blessings to all reading this. This is not easy for me, but unfortunately this is what it has come to. For all of you who know me. Not just know a few facts about me, but actually know me. Things have to be bad for me to do this. A few years ago, I struggled with a severe bout of depression. I had been dealing with it for years, but never understood what it was I was or wasn’t feeling. I was in a very dark place, and didn’t know how to heal. I couldn’t take care of myself and had to depend on others because I was so messed up. After some intense therapy, I moved south. Moving here alone, with only $40 dollars in my pocket, I stepped out on faith! Not knowing how things would go, or how they would play out. Gaining my independence meant more to me than fear. Figuring out life on my terms meant everything to me! So that’s what I did!
since being here, I have been battling constant illness. Being hospitalized frequently, going into respiratory distress twice, having throat surgery to repair my vocal cords and suffering from chronic pain. But still, I didn’t quit! Because I was sick so often, I lost my job. But it didn’t stop there. I was in a bad auto accident, which caused a bad tear in my shoulder, broken ribs, and a detached retina in my good eye! At the same time, I was diagnosed with trigger finger in both hands, in three fingers on each side! The pain has been unbearable. When I became unemployed, I started doing DoorDash to try and recover, but with the pain in my hands and shoulder, it’s almost impossible. I cannot carry anything, bend my fingers, nor can I sit upright for more than 30 minutes. And if that’s not a kick in the face, I was diagnosed with renal (kidney) disease which means I’m in early stages of kidney failure. But still, I didn’t quit! My shoulder is due to be repaired on Feb 26th. One of 2 more surgeries I have to have, which I will be unable to work at all for 4-6 months. I have fallen on very hard times. I’m not sure how I am going to make it. How I’m going to pay my rent, bills or for medication. I’m not sure what to do! If you truly know me, you know that my situation has to be extremely dire for me to ask for help. And it is! I trust in god wholeheartedly! I have faith in him and I believe he didn’t bring me this far, to leave me! I have to have screws put in to reattach the labral to the bone, so recovery is going to be rough! Because I’m here on my own, I don’t have any support. I am afraid. I have fallen so far behind, that I have no idea how to get ahead.
i am not asking you to pay my bills for the next 6 months… that is not realistic! What I am asking is if you can donate anything, and I do mean anything to help me at least figure out the first month or two, I will be forever grateful! I have no doubt that things will turn around… But right now, I’m struggling. I don’t want to fall back into depression. Being in that space almost made me quit once. I am not a quitter and I will never stop fighting! But I really need those of you who can, to fight with me right now! Things are really bad, but I’m standing in faith! If I shared everything I’m dealing with, I’d have to write a book. But just to give a small synopsis Of my situation, I hope you can find it in your heart to share and help if you can. Thank you so much in advance.
