*LostEverything

So very much has come to pass so quickly and so closely it is unbelievable. I am just being honest. It actually started when my husband had a stroke in 2012. I should have realized immediately that my entire life was fixing to change; I did to a degree, but not nearly looking at it for what it actually could do to me life wise! I was stupid. I just got up and got myself a third shift job so my 18 year old daughter could be home with him during the evening while I worked and I made sure he went to all his appointments and physical therapy, I just kept taking care of the family and holding it together. Well fast forward 10 years things never really got back to normal it was now in a holding pattern of the new normal. I knew things for me and him was very different but I had 20 years in this marriage and to me we were a permanent couple! I could not have been more wrong or alone!! Before I tell you about finding out he no longer wanted to go forward with our relationship let me fill you in on a couple other things I was dealing with with. I went through 3 vehicles in a year, my original vehicle the transmission went out so needless to say I did not have the money to replace a transmission we went and bought a cheap little car for me to get around in, I took off to visit my youngest in NC and this little car gave out on the way home. Next car was a little more expensive, made no difference, the motor went out. Well right about the time this was going on was when my husband woke me up one Saturday and basically looked me straight in the eyes and told me he did not think this was going to work out. After 20 years of marriage, you just wake up and decide you don't love me any more and you're out of here. What am I supposed to say to that? Well he did allow me and the grandchildren to continue living in our house. I borrowed $5000 to replace the motor after I got my car back I got to drive it 20 days and a lady crossed over the center line and totalled my car. She left in an ambulance and my X was the only person I knew to call. I got no help from him. I was without a car up until 4 months ago. My oldest daughter has also had problems that I really haven't been able to truly help her with due to everything going on in my life. Well in amongst all of this going on I had been having issues with what I thought was acid reflux. The doctor sent me for a CT scan, they called me to come back in at which time I was told they found a 15 lb tumor growing out of one of my ovaries. WTF!!!! I can't afford that and I am not ready to check out so now what? Well I had to have surgery and a hysterectomy they will not know if it is cancerous until it is removed. And it is still growing rapidly. Well I end up doing that get home and around 10 days later the county police department serve me an eviction notice. I have 10 days to get everything I own and have owned my entire life out of that house and I must leave now with whatever I can carry which is nothing because the doctor hasn't even released me to pick anything up over 5 lbs. So now what do I do? Well I lost practically everything I owned, I am homeless and I have people depending on me. That is a very quick very short version of where I stand. I was working up until the 15th of May at which time I literally had a nervous breakdown at work so they gave me 30 days personal leave, which is not paid. I do have property and a mobile home but they both need work which as of now I can not afford. I'm trying so very hard to get my ducks back in a row. But I am having to ask for help. I can not do this by myself, I really wished I could. I am also waiting on an appointment with a psychiatrist and a therapist to help me deal with everything! I need to be ok and I will pull through this I will also pull this off! Any help would be greatly appreciated!!