I'm not the one to EVER ask for help or even especially when it comes to money. I keep to myself, go to work and once in a while go out. Well that was my life prior to my world crumbling.
September 3rd 2020 I had my children taken away.. I celebrated my birthday while my kids were at their fathers house and CYS was called and made false accusations. I had a dirty urine (not when my children were with me). I was accused of being a drug addict. Now I'm in recovery for 11 years now. To be honest I never included Psychedelics in that because I never did them previous and it was very in frequent that I actually did them. I had 3 hair follicle test that go back 6 months- I passed. 3 urine drug screens - passed. It's been over a year, I have been accused of being an addict, a dealer, a "gold digger". It's funny because if I were a gold digger I wouldn't have walked away with nothing from the divorce and I would have stayed with my ex if that were the case. I just wanted my children. My ex and I had the greatest relationship until the nanny came into the play. Then she tried to take over well she did actually but I refuse to let her take my children.. my children safety has always been number one. When I lost my home due to things that were out of my control such as the septic and structural aspect of it I went to my ex and and asked for the kids to sleep at his house since I didn't have a place to call my own bc of my 120 lb big lovable bear of a dog. For almost a year now I couch surfed, tried to get by and continued to achieve my goal of buying my own home. As of August 24 2021 I was a homeowner. But if we're being honest I'm so numb and doesn't feel like a home without my kids.
i didn't grow up the best of ways. I had a challenging home life, was sexually verbally and physical abused, moved out at an early age and got into drugs to numb my pain. Most people would have never of known bc I put on a smile everyday and keep moving forward. I did time behind bars and when I got out, we'll completely changed my life around. Everything I have accomplished I did myself. I knew what I wanted and what type of life I didn't want. The day I held my daughter for the first time I KNEW being a mom was the reason I was still living.. I told myself and my ex my kids would NEVER go through what I went through nor go through the stress of a broken home. For the first 4 years I didn't go out.. He would but I wouldn't.. I had no reason to.. I made amazing memories with the children, amusement parks, camping, science projects, learning field trips, day trips, weekend trips. 2019 Scott and I decided it was time to separate. I thought we were going to be the next "daddy home" movie.. how Naïve.
Can you imagine walking into a store, pizza shop, gas station and running into your old "friends" and immediately they look at you as if your piece of shit because of the rumors that have been started. Whisper down the alley x10. Some of the stories are so far fetched it literally made me laugh.. well now 14 months later I can't laugh them off. It kills me that some shoot most of the people that I considered close believe them! 2...2 of my closet friends are the only 2 that would stop people and say "shut up" that's not Amber.. quality not quantity. Was that an eye opener. This ugly UGLY divorce/custody case has almost ruined my life. My career to be honest i don't know how I still have my job. Some days I can't get out of bed due to depression, Dr.Richman and his wife Deidra are the most caring, family bosses I have ever met. I saw the way he works and how does with patients and to be honest his discussions with patients and listening to them is what is getting me through. My relationship with my children, I'm being talked BAD to my KIDS about me. The list could go on. She has called CYS 3x already.. she's relentless and just won't leave me alone. Can you imagine hearing your son screaming I HATE myself over and over and over again? Like they have no idea what they are doing to them! Hearing that your son is getting hit due to these episodes? My heart can't take it anymore. And I am pleading for help! I just bought a house 2 months ago, $49,000 in debt with lawyers!!! Yes $49,000! November 23rd is trial and I need $5,000 more to hopefully close this case. I'm struggling. And need help to get to trial. Which is why I'm asking you for help in donating money.. I'm also offering in return credit repair. I do credit repair on the side and would barter my services to get me to my trial and win this case for custody and show that these rumors are indeed false allegations
