PastDueBills

My name is Jennifer Smith, I have two kids I have pretty much raised by myself because the absent parent refuses to pay his child support or help at all, I really am embarrassed to even be doing this and probably wouldn’t be if I didn’t have children, I hope there isn’t any judgment, I just started a part time job as a caregiver, but I’m not sure when I will get my first paycheck, my car insurance is set to cancel tomorrow 12/21/23 and my power is also due tomorrow on top of other bills that are past due, i wasn’t able to get my kids a birthday present, first time ever and I’m afraid I won’t have anything for them for Christmas either because I can’t even pay the behind bills. 
my daughter has been sick with an illness from a Gardasil vaccine since 2019 and only gotten worse, it’s been really hard to leave her alone while I work for long hours and help with her also would mean the world to me, her own dad isn’t even around and he’s not a nice person and makes her and my son feel bad, he owes so much in child support but it’s taking forever for anyone to do anything 
I am trying to work and get myself back on track, it’s hard for me physically and mentally and dealing with epilepsy, but I am trying, my kids and I have had a very hard life, and still struggling badly and could really use any help we can get before we have no place to even live, my family has helped before but they make me feel bad about it and know we need help now and aren’t offering anything, if whoever is reading this could help out any or please share this, I’d be so grateful. 
I don’t know what else to do at this point, I’m supposed to go back to my new job tomorrow 12/21/23 but but I won’t be able to if my insurance cancels then things will get even worse.