DesperateDadMissesDaughter

 I'm a father of a beautiful little girl Abbigail. I love my daughter more then I've ever loved anything in my life. She is my life my heart my soul. Not to long ago things were great with the ex and had my daughter anytime I wanted things were great. Since her birthday in late July when she turned 4 everything has changed for the absolute worse. I am not allowed to talk to or see her. I was completely blind sided. I have begged and pleaded for weeks. Every single night I would FaceTime her and say good night to her sweet dreams I love you. I'm not allowed to do that I have not talked to her or seen her since her birthday. I'm breaking down I've never experienced this kind of pain before I want to cry every time I think about her, most times I do. I'm more of a traditional old-fashioned type when my parents split up they never went through foc they never had to have any interference with the courts so Ive tried to stand by that and thought we could always figure it out one way or another between us as adults as parents for the best interest of our child but now she's absolutely unreasonable cruel and heartless. I pay my child support on time every month. I do what I'm supposed to do I talked to her everyday I went see her I spent time with her I jumped with her on a trampoline, we go out for ice cream we do whatever she wants to do. I always get her the best gifts. I deserve to be my daughter's life. When we are together it's like she doesnt even acknowledge anybody else is in the room just dad and daughter having a blast. At this point I am so frustrated my nerves are so shot I miss my daughter I can't sleep I can't breathe without her. That may sound dramatic but if anyone has ever had their child held against them or away from them you would understand. I dont know how long it's going to take I don't know what I got to do but I know at this point I'm going to have to gear up for a fight and the only way to do that is with a lawyer. And lawyers require retainers. Just typing this is absolutely crushing I just miss my kiddo, I miss my baby I don't know what else to do... But I will do whatever it takes to be in her life. I have to do something.  I can't sit around and be hopeless my daughter is counting on me to fight for her.