Honestly, I would rather eat my own hair than make this but isolation and my current 'support system ' is simply not going to work and there is no way to fix this on my own.
I know there are people out there that have been waiting for me to have the courage and strength to pull off some sort of miracle that is almost certainly impossible in order to change the trajectory of our lives.
Yesterday was almost the worst day of my life but this looming threat is not going anywhere anytime soon. I'm too traumatized and terrified to properly explain here and now but I will give it a go.
I desperately need to help that I don't know how to earn and almost certainly does not even exist. I know what I put as a goal is absurd to expect or even ask for but I do intend to attempt to find some way to create value and money myself but I've yet to figure out how to be able to focus on anything while living under these circumstances and while taking care of so many kids. I'm just going to spit out what I need to pull off somehow before I shut down again.
I desperately need to raise money for my family law attorney. I desperately need to come up with money to get someone to help me fix and finish this bus that we have been living in. I desperately need to find a way to fix the vehicle here that I may have if I somehow replace the transmission so that I can get myself and kids to appointments we desperately need. I am going to lose my kids, my will to live and maybe even my life if I do not achieve the impossible.
My father-in-law is a very skilled carpenter and I would love to be able to have him do the bus for me. He has executive function and an amazing work ethic, and I would feel a thousand times better to be able to at least compensate him for him allowing us to be here as long as we have. This is not working, though. It's not getting better. All that has been getting done around here on the bus has been what I have barely been able to do while taking care of kids. I have to get an elopement proof fence finished immediately.
Pray for us.
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Honestly, I would rather eat my own hair than make this but isolation and my current 'support system ' is simply not going to work and there is no way to fix this on my own.
I know there are people out there to have the courage and strength to pull off some sort of miracle that is almost certainly impossible in order to change the trajectory of our lives.
Yesterday was almost the worst day of my life but this looming threat is not going anywhere anytime soon. I'm too traumatized and terrified to properly explain here and now but I will give it a go.
I desperately need to help that I don't know how to earn and almost certainly does not even exist. I know what I put as a goal is absurd to expect or even ask for but I do intend to attempt to find some way to create value and money myself but I've yet to figure out how to be able to focus on anything while living under these circumstances and while taking care of so many kids. I'm just going to spit out what I need to pull off somehow before I shut down again.
I desperately need to raise money for my family law attorney. I desperately need to come up with money to get someone to help me fix and finish this bus that we have been living in. I desperately need to find a way to fix the vehicle here that I may have if I somehow replace the transmission so that I can get myself and kids to appointments we desperately need. I am going to lose my kids, my will to live and maybe even my life if I do not achieve the impossible.
My father-in-law is a very skilled carpenter and I would love to be able to have him do the bus for me. He has executive function and an amazing work ethic, and I would feel a thousand times better to be able to at least compensate him for him allowing us to be here as long as we have. This is not working, though. It's not getting better. All that has been getting done around here on the bus has been what I have barely been able to do while taking care of kids. I have to get an elopement proof fence finished immediately.
Pray for us.
