*BrokenButNotDown

I got sober 2/4/2020 and my life changed. Shortly after I got sober we had the covid lockdown and was dealing with what we thought was sciatica, turned out to be a condition called avascular necrosis in my left hip. The ball joint was collapsing and I needed surgery, deep core compression, basically they drilled a few holes  straight through my femar. Spent months in a wheelchair and worked hard in physical therapy and by February I was on crutches. While I was in the wheelchair I applied to college and got in to Texas Tech majoring in addiction sciences. April 26th I finally started working and I was working at  a city funded drug treatment facility.  I  loved the job, working with the homeless and battered people.  10 days before Christmas I was in a car accident which was a hit and run. They never located the guy who hit me and totaled my car. I  had some injuries but didn't think too much of it. By Christmas I  could barely walk and went to the doctor and my ball joint collapsed into a point and scraping bone on bone. With my younger age and the condition I was sent to a specialist and hip replacement surgery was scheduled for April 4th. I notified my employer and the CEO said I would have to resign my position because I was 22 days short of FMLA. I ended up not working in early March.  I  was on hydrocodones for the pain and with me still sober for over 2 years I knew I needed to be careful.  Well I got everything arranged at school, the wife took some time off, as much as we could get away with, and the countdown to surgery started. I am so ready to not limp anymore. I have been dealing with all of this for almost 2 years of brutal pain. My pain was deeply increased by having to be a complete burden to my family. Then I woke up on March 22nd with a rash on my neck that was really itchy so went to my doctor and discovered have shingles and my surgery was canceled. Our credit cards are maxed out from the first surgery, and I have to be completely healthy for the hip replacement.  So here I am back in a wheelchair and already missed about a month of work. Shingles last about 3-6 weeks to clear and about 2 weeks after that for my blood test to say I'm healthy for surgery. Well with covid the hospital is backed up with surgeries and right now the earliest day they are scheduling is at the end of May. By the time I  get back through physical therapy I  will be out of work almost 5 months. We can not live of my wife's call center job. We can't get the state to give us food stamps and are at the end of our rope. This the last thing I ever thought I would do and I'm a recovered addict. I  know God will not give me anymore than I can handle, but I have learned it's okay to ask for help when you need it. Thank you for even just reading this and please pray for us, we are looking at losing our house if something doesn't change.  May God bless you and your family.