HelpSaveMeFromTotalRuin

I'm in trouble family and friends! I've followered my heart where I am now totally defeated. I left the home I've proudly and almost soley built myself over the past 2 years. I came to Houston with good intentions and the assurance of those I love that I would be able to maintain my finances and responsibilities from afar. Unfortunately that has became unnatianable. Due to  machanical failures the business coming to a stand still  twice now, thats made that reassurance become null and void now that I'm a month behind on everything and can't get home. My phone is off too. Thank god for wifi.  I've done what I can to survive here but my life in New York will soon become a memory and I will lose everything  if I don't get  home to take care of things . I'm embarrassed I left and trusted in the first place and I'm even more embarrassed that I have to ask for help now. I didn't think things through.. I've come so far and now I've  fallen so far back and now I'm ultimately drowning.  Thank you in advance if you are able to help and if not I ask you to pray for me and my mental health because I'm not well at all. I love you and to my mom and my girls I'm so sorry and  I'm trying to get home. The money I'm trying to raise is for my apartment payment, 2 months behind and my car payment is due $450 and the rest is for gas and a phone to get home, I'm proud of what I've done and the home I built and I don't want to lose it. I'm sad and scared  that Im in this position now! Please pray for me. I believe this happened for a reason to make our family appreciate each other more and to humble me into knowing what I have in NY. To realize just how far I really have come. Now I need to go home and appreciate ,love, nurture and protect my loved ones and life! My making the decision to come here was rash and irrisponsible and a lesson learned. Please if you can help me go home and save my life because here Im failing completely!