TMSTreatment

For about a year I have found out I have ADHD, Depression, Anxiety, and PTSD. I just currently went to a psychiatrist, and I told him I have did therapy,  ADHD doctor's and also over the phone psychiatrist. None of which has helped me. I have taken over 10 meds to help my situation, and he even clearly was stumped. Then he mentioned TMS a treatment that is only 20 minutes long and that can rewire my brain. I figured I would give it a shot. I have insurance from my work. Of course, they will be able to help with the payment! I got a call from the TMS doctor and he told me that my insurance will only cover $3k. That I have to fork over $7k. I normally don't ask for help from any strangers, but currently right now I really need it. Let me give you my day life. I cry at work with the smallest thing that my coworker would say that might not even be so bad. I call out almost every single day, and I even use to harm myself when I was young. I can't do the things I use to love because I have just given up hope. Figuring that I will never be able to do the things I use to love to do. I use to do voice acting, vtuber streaming, and so much more. Now I look at it and think "What is the point?" Or "No one will be listening, so why should I even try." People might say its all in my head, and they are right. However, my depression is so bad that I will have a fit at home for no reason because something simple sets me off where I throw stuff around the apartment. I don't want to feel this anymore. I want to be normal self again where I use to laugh, smile, and even enjoy going outside with my friends. Not worrying about what is going to be around the corner. Please! If anyone has a heart for this year, christmas, new years and etc then please help me out!