*RoleModelForMyChildren

I have three children and have been married to their father for 14 years and it has been an abusive 14 years. The only other family I have was my father and he died November 12 of 2020. I have absolutely no other family. Recently, my daughter asked me to divorce her dad I told her the only reason I have stayed this long is because financially, I cannot support us And I’m scared to venture out. I’m afraid of losing my children had a few jobs on and off over the last few years but I’ve always been a stay at home mom while he supported us if that’s what you want to call it. My daughter told me God will take care of us if I stand on the right decisions and leave him she’s tired of seeing her mom hurt. She’s tired of wondering , is he going to kill me one day so I have stepped out and fate and done what she asked me to do and I’m in the process of filing for a divorce. He recently found us where we were. That’s why I have the black eyes I’ve prayed and prayed  And this website fell into my lap. I’ve never asked for help like I said I don’t have any family to ask for help I’ve just always depended on him I’m a terrified mother , We have been staying at a hotel room, but I only have two days left here. I’ve tried to find work and because of the holidays just no one is hiring at the moment I’m terrified Of losing my children they are all I have… but what example was I setting for them by staying in a relationship like that? Please if anyone can help financially or just as some mental support, please someone reach out to me my kids are the happiest I’ve seen them in a long time but of course they don’t know our financial issues, please please please anybody that can please help us !!!