Update: 4/21/2023 
Who knew that when I adopted my translator in Uganda, Paul, as my Starfish recipient, that I would become a Starfish to so many amazing women and men. I can not thank everyone who has prayed, sent financial support in various ways, bought gifts from my amazon list, came and physically helped me tackle the many chores, projects and repairs on my many lists.
I still have quite a ways to go but I really am trying to enjoy the journey. I try to just focus on what I can get done on my lists between 10am-5pm. If I get one thing done it was a worthwhile day.
So please continue to pray for me. Having functional depression is exhausting and some days I just cant help needing to post on Facebook for validation. Somedays the problems, obstacles, issues are just so overwhelming that I just can't be my own cheerleader. I still feel like somehow this whole situation makes me a loser. Even though I didnt do anything to cause my current situation.
Daily I am fighting a mental battle that I rarely win. I am also fighting physical battles because my body just doesnt work the way it once did. This makes progress slow, even non existent somedays.
So if I'm posting a new problem, a task or repair I'm overwhelmed by, it isnt because I'm not grateful for EVERYRHING that has transpired over the last 6 weeks, it is because I need your help. Yeah you. The one who is reading this. I need your prayers for my mental & physical health. I need those of you who live close by to come and help me physcially. There is so much to do.
So thank you all who have stood by me without criticism. Im doing the best I can and cant thanknyou enough for allowing me to be your Starfish. You all have definitely made a huge difference in this Starfish. May God bless everyone of you.
Good night.
UPDATE: I posted this GoFundMe less than less than a week ago and I am thoroughly disgusted by some people's behavior. I have no one here to offer me solace about this roller-coaster ride which is my life. the older I get the harder it is getting to roll with the complexities that come with moving. This isn't about taking sides. It is what it is. I don't need to hear that people are gossiping behind my back, whether it is for me or against me. I just don't know how it is going to be possible for me to rent a $1200/month one bedroom apartment when I make $2000/month. Any ideas are welcome, that is why I post what I post on Facebook, I am talking to my friends. Please don't try to make me live this very difficult experience in silence. As they say in AA, "Being in my own head is like being in a dangerous neighborhood, alone, at midnight." I have no business there as I will just hurt myself - emotionally, physically and spiritually, so yes, I air all my emotional dirty laundry on social media yet is any of you know me at all you know I have always been "real." I don't hold back my feelings when it is about my self-preservation. I don't want to live in my truck, I can't afford the cost of rent, I've applied for low-income senior housing but I am over a year away I was told by the housing authority. I've called social services, I've call Gloucester County Senior Services and anyone else that has so far been recommended. So what else can I do? The trailer I have the floor is gone in the push out and so far everyone who has looked at it says they don't want to touch it. I was hoping to buy a trailer already on a lot in a year round campground for $20k is now gone. My only hope is to possibly finance a newer used camper from a dealer near me but I will need at least $10k to put down. I now have $700. A huge blessing for sure and to all those who have added to this fundraiser and sent money via Venmo, Paypal or Zelle, I cannot tell you thank you enough. For all the prayers being said and offers to come park my trailer on their land (Lori & Hannah I love you both immensely), your kindness gives me hope.
Please I need 930 people to each donate $10 or 465 people to donate $20 or 186 people to donate $50 or 93 people to donate $100... honesty any amount will help. Again if you prefer Venmo @Eiobrien1960, Paypal is eiobrien@hotmail.com or Zelle is 856-904-6636. Please share with your friends, post my plea on your page, tells someone you know who has been where I am... I just really need a miracle right now. Thank you. Eileen
(3/17/2023) I dont even know where to start this. I'm praying that the Grace of God and the Luck of the Irish (as it is St. Patrick's Day) will join forces and be with me once again.
Im trying to raise money to either buy a trailer already on a site at the year round campground where I know I could be happy or to buy a better, newer camper trailer that I can keep at a friends until my name comes up on the waiting list.
Here is my Transparent Life story:
I often prayed when I gave my life to Jesus in April 2010, for God to increase my faith as I wanted to be a great witness of His love, power and providence. When I look back I quickly learned to stop praying that as I often found myself in situatuons that demanded a lot of faith.
Just some highlights:
Lost my job/income of 6 yrs at a local hospital 2 weeks after my decision to walk with Jesus. Then I began a downward financial spiral that saw me go into forclosure of my home that I bought only 4 yrs earlier. I defaulted on my Stafford Loans, had my car repo'ed, went into terrible credit card dept, began a series of low paying, NEN (no experience necessary) jobs, had my 3rd serious major depression episode, filed bankrupcy, totaled my car... you get the picture.
Trust me in the last 13 years there have been amazing and miracleous blessings that have given me great opportunities to share about God's compasion and provisions. Like Ive often said, " He really must likes me." Yet I also know that whenever God shows up and starts to show off, Satan sends his minions to try and get us to curse God's goodness by bringing new problems, like Job in the Old Testament.
That is where I find myself now. Trust me I'm no Job but If you have followed my FB "Transparent Life" rants & videos, then you know that 2 weeks ago I was informed I have to vacate my home of almost 5 years because my landlord is selling the farm to her daughter and she is comandereing my apartment.
At that moment I had only $200 to my name as my most recent client passed in December and I hadnt yet aquired a new, steady senior care job. I had asked for prayer prior to this for work and God brought three amazing clients and their caregivers into my life. It's a mogpog of days and hours but they have the potenial of financing my life.
I was blessed with a camper trailer that I figured Stella and I could live in and save enough to maybe try and get a nice apartment but that quickly fell apart when I discovered that the floor in the front section of the camper was rotted. It is going to take a miracle to get it fixed as the three RV repair companies all.said they dont do this kind of work now. One told me that was a "winter jobs" as they take a while to do and now is their busy summer season. Jobs with quick turnarounds.
So I'm back to having nowhere to live, no money to rent (I now have saved $500) and no understanding of why I am in this situation. I have a strong faith today and a belief that God already knows the outcome. He already has something amazing waiting for me, another miraculous testimony but in any given moment my human flesh has a brief anxiety moment!
So I have found that when God gives me directions through the Bible, through people, and through preachers, I better pay attention and do the action He is calling me to do. So three people have asked me to publish this GoFundMe and also have asled for my venmo ID (@ Eiobrien1960). So I'm doing both. I actually would prefer the latter as there are no fees.
If God puts it on your heart please share this request.
