GettingBackWithMyUtahSoberFa

I'm Johnny and I'm a recovering drug addict. The longest sober time I ever had was 2 yrs and 6 months. I went to Utah for treatment after my mom died of cancer and my fiance died of a heroin overdose. I really needed help. I did work on myself and stayed sober for a long time. I met so many amazing people that I consider my lifelong friends in Utah. However I did meet a girl that was getting high and I fell in love. I ended up relapsing with her and I lost everything. My credit is so messed up and I can't get back to Utah and get my own place without a lot of money down. I had to leave Utah and get away from her to make sure I was able to get myself better. I am three and a half months sober now and I don't have a place to live in Utah. I've been working I save some money but it's not enough. I'm trying to plan this and do this right I really need help and this is the most embarrassing thing I've ever did but I need it and i trust my good friend Sarah with my life and she told me to do it. So here I am asking for help.