I was diagnosed with two brain tumors last year. One was removed in an emergency surgery 5 days after its initial discovery in an ER visit in March 2024. The other is being treated holistically. I have this fundraiser open out of necessity and as an opportunity for me to receive support from those of you who'd like to help me navigate this experience. I believe in my healing and recovery, and I am asking for and inviting in the financial abundance to reinforce that and to support me through this as a whole. The expenses I have moving forward include but are not limited to: rent, bills, travel, basic needs and living expenses, holistic treatments, herbal medicine, and more. I greatly appreciate your contributions. *This request is intentionally worded to place focus on the empowerment of my being and ability to navigate this rather than putting focus on the diagnosis or situation itself. I have also included more information below and a list of resources that I hope will resonate with whoever needs them. Thank you so much for your support.
Venmo: Madison Holmes @betternbetter
Paypal: https://www.paypal.me/MAHolmes
email: risingvibe.madison@gmail.com
*other ways you can support me besides donating:
- share this fundraiser
- order cacao from Kokoleka with code HEARTOPEN and I get a 15% commission https://www.kokolekacollective.com/
- order products from Fractal Forest and I get store credit to use toward supplements https://fractalforest.co/?sca_ref=4069385.wwpIShKx80
- become a member on my patreon (there's hardly anything on there at the moment, but if you'd like to support me by contributing $5 a month, here's where to do it! I'll post sometimes and probably upload podcast-style memos) https://patreon.com/madiswan?utm_medium=unknown&utm_source=join_link&utm_campaign=creatorshare_creator&utm_content=copyLink
*treatment approaches that I’m using (for reference and in case you're interested in pursuing any of these things in your own healing)
- Classical Pearls traditional Chinese formulas (created by Heiner Fruehauf - you need a TCM practitioner to access these, I get mine from https://www.clearpath.clinic/)
- neurosurgeon Dr. Jack Kruse and his teachings on light, water, magnetism, healing with the sun, relocating to the equator, EMF's, melanin, and circadian biology (find him on Patreon, X, Apple Podcasts)
- relocating to Nicaragua/Hawaii/the tropics re:^ (I fly back to Vermont for MRI's every 3-4 months, bloodwork/imaging, etc) Dr. Kruse told me in a consultation in May 2024 a few months after my surgery that it was imperative to move to a lower latitude. I moved as soon as I could and headed to Nicaragua in July 2024. Nicaragua is also a lot less expensive than VT and is relatively safe. I am in Hawaii currently and have been rotating between these 3 places as necessary
- getting as tan as possible (what Kruse calls melanin renovation)
- getting up at sunrise daily, watching the sunrise + sunset (more Kruse/circadian bio)
- ^using only red light after the sun goes down/minimizing and eliminating use of regular lights -- (this is the red light I use every night same as you'd use a flashlight) https://boncharge.com/products/blue-light-blocking-clip-light
- switched all my screens (computer, phones) to red color filter in accessibility settings
- keeping my phone on airplane mode almost all the time (unless I'm using it), unplugging wifi when possible, talking only on speaker phone, and reducing overall EMF exposure
- avoiding places and furniture that have mold
- mitochondrial health and optimizing function
- iv#rm#ctin *I got mine for very cheap in Nicaragua, I just learned you can access it here if you're in the US: https://www.twc.health/products/ivermectin-mebendazole?_pos=1&_psq=ivermectin&_ss=e&_v=1.0
- medicinal mushrooms (turkey tail, reishi, lion's mane, chaga, etc) donated from Malama Mushrooms in Kona, Hawaii and Vermont Funguy https://www.vermontfunguy.com
- methylene blue https://fractalforest.co/?sca_ref=4069385.wwpIShKx80
- cannab!s https://mendflower.com/
- prayer/affirmation
- meditation/visualization
- psychotherapy and somatics
- quantum healing
- a daily spiritual practice
- renovation of the subconscious mind and belief systems
- a mostly paleo and localized diet
- clean water/spring water/molecular hydrogen (some of my sources are the local spring in Hardwick, VT when I'm home / Cymbiotika molecular hydrogen tabs / Lourde's machine / you can find a spring near you at https://findaspring.org)
- sound healing
- shifting from victim mindset into personal power and sovereignty
- Lomi Lomi (I am studying Lomi and integrating the concepts into my own self healing)
- zeolites (I haven't used these yet but they are on deck and I figured are worth mentioning)
and more
--- many of these things are free or low cost but require time/energy/effort/discipline, and of course some of them require $$$
**something I haven't tried yet but is in my awareness and could be helpful to people: https://floridasharkman.org/
*some of the music I listen to that helps me through this:
- Chantress Seba, Ku'ulei, Maka Gallinger, Cleo Sol, Londrelle, Sierra Marin, Able Heart, Jhene Aiko and more
(all on Apple Music/Spotify and Youtube)
*some of the books I read and reread that support me right now (especially spiritually)
- The Bowl of Light by Hank Wesselman
- the Spiritwalker series by Hank Wesselman
- Wise Secrets of Aloha by Harry Uhane Jim
- Prayers of the Cosmos: Meditations on the Aramaic Words of Jesus by Neil Douglas-Klotz
- Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer
*a few podcasters I listen to that are consistently helpful in my healing:
- Jessa Reed
- Jack Kruse
- Harry Jim
- sound therapy
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I have chosen this route over and instead of the radiation protocol that was strongly recommended to me after surgery. My decision was finalized after my consultation with Jack Kruse and inspired by what Kruse calls decentralized medicine. Creating my version of a decentralized path has been empowering and effective, and all of my scans since have demonstrated success in this approach -- no tumor recurrence at the surgery site, no growth of the second tumor. 🙏 I also want to acknowledge all of the people who have shared their knowledge with me, inspired me, supported me, and advised me leading up to and throughout this. Thank you. Their truths and perspectives have helped me find and define my own.
*pathology report from Dartmouth Hitchcock Medical Center in New Hampshire, where I had surgery (3/13/24). This diagnosis is not cancer, nor is it benign, and is classified as cancer-like/and requires the same approaches to treatment. BAP1 is a genetic mutation in the DNA that means that the tumor suppressor genes are off instead of on.
*post surgery March 2024
*2ish months after surgery - much of the journey has looked like this. I don't like posting pictures of myself this vulnerable but it is the truth.
*6 months post-op in Vermont when I came back for my MRI in August/September 2024
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The recalibration and alignment this experience has gifted me is invaluable. It has forced me to adapt and to evolve and learn my own power, and has also simultaneously been the most profound suffering and difficulty and isolation and confrontation of my own mortality I have ever known. This is a refined and compacted snippet of my journey. The lived experience is often unpredictable and intense. Community support has been and continues to be essential in creating stability for me. Your support is elevating and sustaining my experience on all levels and has quite literally made this possible for me -- there are no long-term rehabilitation programs or resources (that I have found) that would help me to do this otherwise.
Thank you so much for reading and for donating if you feel compelled to. I sincerely appreciate every donation, and each one impacts my wellbeing positively. I had no home, no savings, and few material resources going into this due to health conditions that had been ongoing for years prior. I thankfully receive $1500/month from SSDI, and everything that comes from this fund supports me beyond that. I've started to work a little (as of spring 2025) in little ways as I am able, but really healing is all demanding and requires everything I have. Donations continue to be needed and welcome. Your contributions offer access to resources, peace and provision, a chance to rest, and the ability to do what I’m doing more fully. I hope that my approach to healing can help you and all who may benefit from it.
✨♾✴︎
Madison
