I never thought I’d be here.. asking strangers for help.
But I’ve run out of options, and I can't let pride take over anymore.
I work full-time dispatching emergency services. It’s a high-pressure job that demands more energy than I should probably explain. I pick up extra shifts when I can and I even drive rideshare on the side when I have the energy left. I’m a part time single parent trying to stay stable for my child while everything around me feels like it’s crumbling. I don’t live big nor spend carelessly. I don’t sit around hoping someone else will fix this. I’ve done everything I know how to do for months and it’s still not enough. Lately, I’ve been staring at my budget with nothing left to cut. I’m behind on rent, utilities are close behind, and I’m tapped out. I’ve looked into assistance programs, but I make just enough between Ride Share and my primary job to not qualify, even though I can’t afford to live.
In all honesty, I’ve even considered living in a tent. Not because I want to but because I’m exhausted and feel like I'm backed into a corner. I would never put my child in that situation, but if it was just me? I’ve thought about it more times than I want to admit. Not having to pay rent for even a few months, while I catch up sounds nice. This isn’t me giving up, it’s me in a last ditch effort asking for help. I just need enough to get current, breathe for a moment, and regroup before things get worse lol.
If you can help, know that it won’t be taken for granted. Every bit will go toward staying housed and keeping the lights on. If you’ve been here, or close to it, then you understand how hard it is to ask.
Thank you for reading. I hope for those who stuck around to read this knows I've tried everything and that I'm not proud to be here.
