*MyAccountabilityToRecover

I was born the youngest of 7 in the deep South. My mother died when I was two years old from a long battle with a serious lung disease, she was only 36 when she passed. That was the beginning of  years of moving from one household to the next as a ward of the States foster care program. It was often a move from one abusive situation to the next and it was really damaging to my self worth and self esteem as I always felt unwanted. I was on my own by the age of 16, when most kids were getting their first cars, I was struggling to keep a roof over my head. I would love to tell everyone that I,"bucked-up", got a job and supported myself while growing into a healthy adult, but that isn't the truth. The truth is I began using drugs and alcohol as a way to "cope" and escape from from reality. As allot of other people's stories can give credit to, becoming a long term drug addict was not what I dreamed of becoming when I was a kid. But there i was, in my late twenties powerless over my life. I made a decision to change.. At all cost! This decision was made several more times as I would surrender and go to several more treatment facilities. But life on life's terms is hard, I lacked the stability needed to put up a good flight. I would get out of treatment and find myself homeless. I never stopped fighting for sobriety and stability. I've moved from the south, I'm now living in Arizona, I'm growing older and allot of my past demons that used to haunt me were all left behind some years ago. But life on life's terms...right? I now am facing medical  issues, and not the polite kind.I go for more heart test next week to see if I have blockage in my veins, a stress test after that, and then lung test.I work 2 days a week at a butcher shop and it simply isn't enough live on. I've thought of filling for disability but that is long term, long off decision making. I need help, truck payments, gasoline, eating healthier, even my best friends food.Bama Ray, my dog, deserves to be taken on hiking trips, fishing trips, and other fun things because he is absolutely my service animal, he brightens my days and helps me deal with the stress of life. I am grateful for any and all contributions made to help me be there for bama for another 20 years. Thank you all.