Hi friends and family!
I have been pretty absent on the internet for the last few weeks, on June 5th I was placed on a two week leave from work due to my Insomnia & subsequently my growing anxiety & panic over my inability to sleep. It’s something I’ve struggled with for a few years, but the last few months it has felt unbearable. It was beginning to affect my ability to show up and perform my basic daily functions, not only in my workplace, but in my everyday life.
My body was so fatigued and panicked it started to manifest in physical sensations that were in turn making my anxiety even worse. I started some new medications and got my leave extended an extra week while I try to repair my relationship with sleep and establish a routine that allows my nervous system some relief.
I hate needing to ask for help, but I’m currently getting the run around right now with disability & the supplemental income I should be receiving through my workplace from it. I currently don’t know when or if I even will receive any type of assistance in the now three weeks I haven’t been working. Rent is now coming up along with a few other big bills at the beginning of July. If you have anything to spare or are able to share this with some people who can I would greatly appreciate it.
I’ve never been in a position in my 10 years of living on my own where I was this worried about not being able to pay my rent. It’s terrifying. But I also know that my brain and my body so deeply needed this time off to be able to slow down and get myself back together. My body was screaming at me to stop, and I had to pay attention.
Any support in this time is so valued, even if it’s just some kind words or advice. I love you all & am very hopeful that things are looking up for me and my family from here on out.
