PleaseBlessASingleMomforXmas

I'm a 49 year old single, and very disabled mom and grandma who has just been made the matriarch of our family due to the death of my parents who were everything to us. I have six children (some older and on their own, not included) and one grandson who lives with me and another on the way who will be coming home from the hospital to me. I'm only looking for help for the ones under 18. I also rescue cats (5 at home) and get them fixed and vetted and feed multiple communities of cats, now that the shelters are too full for more. Sadly recently my mom passed from cancer I was her full-time caregiver. Then the elderly couple who I took care of full-time passed away within the past 6 weeks. Then while I'm going through treatments for my lyme disease as well as other autoimmune issues and my traumatic brain injury, one of our memory foam mattresses shead tiny pieces of fiberglass all over everything we own. And with the big family, we had to get rid of so much, including bedding, clothing, furniture and toys that my children have had their whole lives. They're heartbroken mainly the stuffed animals they collect and adore. Sadly cannot be washed, cleaned or dried out it just makes the fiberglass smaller and you can actually pick it out of your skin. We had to have people come in and hazmat suits to clean out our air ducts because we were breathing it in & getting respiratory illnesses from going through all of this. Right now I'm a month behind on my rent, and I'm doing anything to try to get my children anything to put under the tree this year. Julian is 3½, his baby brother is due December 24th, Layla just turned 10, Skye is 12, Shay (boy) is 17 and goes to school and special needs extra curriculum full time. Marra is just 18 in November. The older 2 are on their own and don't help much. Especially with the grandkids, but that's another issue. I won't bother naming all the cats but they're our babies too. Lol. At this point the kids are grateful for the little they have. And they will be extremely thankful and grateful for anything that they may receive this year. It's been hard on them having Grandma gone as she was our everything & basically our main provider, mainly because I was getting paid to take care of her full time which she needed with oral, lymph node in lung cancer. Poor thing had to have her whole tongue in jaw removed, have a tracheotomy and eat through a feeding tube. She passed away on my older daughter's birthday. And besides Christmas we also have two November birthdays, two (soon to be 3) December birthdays, and one in January. I've managed to get a very small Christmas tree that can sit on a table, but our decorations and everything had to be thrown out due to the fiberglass. But we still have our health and that's what's most important.  Sadly, if it weren't for food stamps, right now I don't even know how we would be able to eat. I don't want pity in any way I'm just trying to fill anyone who might be interested in on our situation. I'm truly grateful that we're all together.  We're currently in this very small two & ½ bedroom house, me and the youngest two sleep in the living room, while we wait for a decision on if our house is habitable or if they're going to condemn it due to the fiberglass being all through the air ducts and on every surface that can be imagined. It's been a nightmare. I have a disability lawyer who's been working on my disability case for almost a year now, which will make life just a little easier for us when I win, I'm literally living on under $150 a month and that has to go for everything from clothes, toilet paper to laundry soap. I coupon, dumpster dive (sadly) as much as possible. All this without a vehicle. Times are tough but they breed tough people. And I can only say that our faith has brought us closer and gotten us along this far. I also deal with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and slight agoraphobia. All I do is spend my time with my children, giving them space to talk to me while being their truest self, something I never had with my mom, but that's another story. We read books and play the few games we have now. I'm happy to say that my children are resilient, happy, love to read, and help in our garden which helps supplement our food supply... thank goodness. I want to send love out to the universe and anyone who might be reading this. Thank you for all that you do and I can only hope and pray that I might be found worthy to be chosen. I know many have it worse. But I know my children deserve the very best.