Hi there. Today I am swallowing my pride. I see people out here making fundraisers to “donate to piss off my haters” I watched someone already make 2k JUST TO “PISS OFF HER HATERS” listen, all the props to her. It’s actually funny. But it made me think the last few days what 2k would do for me, it would literally turn my life around. I am in about 8k of debt, I have a suspended license for tickets I got from getting in a car accident for hitting black ice. I ended up in the hospital with kidney failure after my second pregnancy (I had HG and was hospitalized 26 times during my pregnancy) and I just never dealt with the tickets, all I could focus on was my kids and healing.
I am a mom of two, my youngest is level 3 autism, nonverbal & has SIBS. We have had a rollercoaster of a ride the last three years. Soleil needs full time around the clock, 24/7 care. We do not have much help or support. It’s very lonely and a hard job, we make the best of it and do everything we can to remain positive and grateful. I have been trying for years to start a business that I can work around Sol’s care and needs.
I desperately need to get my license back and pay off my debt I am working so hard to build a cleaning business (something I can manage while being a 24/7 caregiver to my profoundly autistic daughter) I was approved for my LLC I just don’t have the credit to get a business loan.
The last year I worked a part time job just to pay back 5k to SSI because they made a mistake of not including my partners commissions. Every time we get ahead we get kicked in the butt with something else. My partner makes just enough money to pay bills and get us BASIC necessities. We don’t blow money we don’t foolishly spend. My partner works so hard we never see him and we still are just making ends meet. I desperately need to get out of this debt I have and pay off my tickets so I can actually help support our family. I have tried for years to do this on our own. I had to quit my job because my youngest who is profoundly autistic, non verbal and also has SIBS. She was self injuring herself and us for months and I had to take a step back because peace in our home was more important than a paycheck. Soleil is now fully back in her routine and thriving now that I am home. I cannot get another job where I work 30 hours in 2 1/2 days. It was not working my partner and I were never seeing one another and the kids were struggling because of ZERO family time.
If anyone knows me you KNOW I wear my heart on my sleeve I have helped so many people in the past, I’ve let people stay in my house for free, I’ve given food to people when we hardly had food to eat, I’ve given my last dollar just to help because I know what it feels like.
I don’t have family I can ask for help. I don’t have a way of working without completely destroying my family and peace at home again. No one wants to hire someone Monday Tuesdays and some Wednesdays. Believe me I’ve been applying everywhere. If I could get my license back I would door dash but that’s even scary to do with my autistic child. Her safety will always come first.
I have contemplated so much making this fundraiser. But after seeing people donate to someone simply to “piss haters off” I decided why not try.
I am simply going to hand this over to god and pray a miracle happens.
If I could just get ahead with this debt and tickets it would be life changing for me. All I want is to have a small cleaning business I can work on the days Alex is home until I can build it up enough to simply just have employees.
My goal is to eventually build this business up so I can start a non profit for middle class families with autistic children, because let’s face it, we struggle the most with help.
I have the biggest heart and I am a good person, I have just been handed the worst cards. I continue to stay positive with a smile on my face.
I know a lot of people are struggling right now and I am very blessed to have what I have. I truly just want to be able to build a business so I can help others again and simply live comfortably. I don’t need much. I just don’t want to struggle anymore.
If you made it this far, thanks for being here, thanks for listening.
I feel so trapped and stuck, it’s been this way for too long. My kids deserve more, I deserve more, my partner deserves a break. That man works so hard- he shouldn’t have to struggle so much.
To anyone that donates, thank you. I hope you know what a blessing you are.
If nothing comes of this I still will be grateful for you just taking the time to read.
