Im embarrassed its come to this. I've made plenty of mistakes and paid the price sending me away to prison. I'm grateful for that because it changed me for the absolute best. I was a stubborn High school drop out with a overly ambitious untouchable sense of ignorance. Don't get me wrong I want to be clear that By all means I wasn't a scholar but I was raised right. I've never stolen , I always stood up for others when they didn't have it in them to protect themselves. I know the pains of selfishness and also self sabotage. I worked hard to turn my life around received my GED, went to community college and graduated with my welding certificate and for the first time in my life I felt a great sense of pride because i finally had the independence and job security and finally realized my potential. Mistakes happen- I worked hard and quickly earned my pay raise and shortly after was promoted. I didn't have any plans on never being out of a job, so I splurged on myself. Financing my first new truck and trailer to live in with my dog. This was a huge milestone from having nothing at all years before. I found a girl who unknowingly motivated me and gave me great deal of happiness. Especially the pride I felt knowing my mom was happy and living stress free not wondering if I'd be dead or in jail, and Working long hard hours didn't matter to me because I had all the right reasons to keep moving forward. The time came and I proposed while the sun was setting off the dark beach water with the help of her parents and my mom. She said yes!!! i was on top of the world!!!! Buying the ring, Planning for these wedding, saving for a house and dreams of having a beautiful family with both parents present which was most important to me being raised by a single mother "until my stepdad- DAD" came into the picture. I never felt so complete in my Life nothing could knock me off that high horse.. Then Covid hit- everyone was getting laid off of work as they began pulling permits for our projects and quickly I was one of the last men working. All while people were quarantined sucking up unemployment. Not me I was "essential" and damn proud of it... That's until 4 of the last few men got sick with covid. That was the begging to this fantasy. We all got sent home for precautionary reasons. I figured two weeks and I'll be back at work.. My job was never opened back up. That didn't stop me, I pushed forward with the same excitement. I'm proud to say I have a job so I went and worked for her dads company. Only Alcohol was consuming her parents relationship, and that soon reflected on her father and how he ran his business. Not to worry I kept his business afloat! All while he drank himself away,believe it or not, but he wasn't the same man.. My mom had a heart attack soon after, and my stepdad began falling apart physically "Harley technician for 35yrs" he's closing in fast on 70yrs old. My family asked if I'd be willing to relocate, come back home and help out Dad at his garage and possibly take over the shop. I obliged and thought what a great opportunity. Well my ex fiancé saw things differently we planned to have me get me feet grounded first then soak. After she finished nursing school she's come right along my side and we'd be living it up! Until we weren't and she decided she doesn't like my home town because it's no big city like where she's from. She left me, I'm making far less money also and she didn't like that one bit. I've lost my truck and my trailer. But in the bright side I held onto my moms surprise bday dream car. And i finally accomplished what I promised my mom as a child one day I'll hug you 77 corvette. Instead of selling it to pay my bills I decided to be car less and broke. Now here I am 9 months separated, sad depressed and alone with no drive left in me I lost everything I invested in. No trailer no truck, no car, a low paying job which I love but isn't paying my bills. I applied for other jobs as well but no one wants to hire a non violent ex drug selling felon. I don't do drugs, hell I hardly enjoy beer anymore but no reputable decent wage job for wants to take a chance on a felon. I had to take back the corvette I gifted my mom just to get around and thought doordash or Uber ears can help me make some extra money but turns out they don't want me either.. Sad and lonely, confused, anxious, and desperate. Only bills don't care and my credit is crap so my interest keeps building and ju debt keeps growing. That brings me to the closing statements now I'm 45k in debt. Feeling defeated with my back against the wall attempting to stay strong but it's gotten hard. I've never felt so low in my life. I can squeeze in more specific details and downers but if you've made it this far into a glimpse of my life you can see I'm being honest and genuinely ask for any assistance. I'm sure people got it worst than I do, but when it comes my turn to help someone in need I won't forget this. I'm asking for hope last chance to start fresh. 45k debt But a simple Twenty dollars would bring me hope to not give up on myself. For more information or to contact me Instagram @alec_b21 cash app alec1021. Thank you hearing me out
