I am a Senior and have been a Survivor my entire life. Always looking for that open window when a door closes. But now I feel as if my light at the end of then tunnel is dimming and if it is just time for me to go. I apologize for the long story but it is.
My beautiful dog in the picture I took in when my two adorable fur babies died last year. She is a Senior also, blind, deaf and dementia but a heart of gold. I am a Cancer Survivor from Cervical that went into Ovarian. Before my Hysterectomy was blessed with my only and miracle child. She was severely premature and just over one pound. Today my daughter is missing and have spent so much time calling everywhere. Police Departments, Morgues etc. trying to find her. I don't have the finances to go to the last heard from state. When I say I am a Cancer Survivor, is it really over? Or do Women just hold their breath? When I had my first bout with Breast Cancer was years ago. Biopsies that revealed pre cancerous breast tissue in both breasts. Years of lumps and masses removed as they turned from suspicious to In situ (malignant). Years of MRI's, Ultrasounds, Biopsies and pre-chemo meds. Meds taken for years that are making my teeth crack and fall out. Do not have the finances to get multiple implants so it makes it hard to interview for jobs. Spent tens of thousands on medical bills. I wish I could go back in time and fix all the bad investments I made and lost all in 2008.
Then this year during a Cardiac CT I was found with a Cardiac Blockage. This was done as I was experiencing heart pain and went into severe heat exhaustion tipping on heat stroke due to my landlord not fixing the AC promptly and living in 94 degrees in my house for 30 days.
I had to go in for a Cardiac Cath where the used the artery in my arm. Due to complications the procedure when almost 2 hours over. After the surgery, I developed a clot in my radial artery and nerve damage form the Cardiac Sheath. This caused extreme pain to my arm with low function. I couldn't turn the steering wheel of my car. Going to work was out of the question as had to drive clients around. A year of PT.
When it rains it pours is a reality this year. My landlord decided to sell, pushed me out of the house despite paying rent with a slimy attorney and kept most of my security deposit for ridiculous charges. I ended up spending thousands in a hotel and then couch crashing with my dog. All while recovering from my arm damage..
Rents are exorbitant in my area and the only place I could find with a pet through a prior property manager was a 2 bedroom for $2300 a month.
I was scheduled for cataract surgery and during the Pre Op my surgeon discovered I had Acute Closed Angle Glaucoma. This isn't the one fixed with eye drops. It is the Glaucoma the causes irreversible blindness in a week. Requires emergency surgery putting holes in your Iris. What else could go wrong? How about after 4 surgeries developed complications needed 2 more and have a visual defect during day light. No driving 6 months. If they get this repaired my older car which just had to have new AC put in has multiple leaks ($2500) repair. Needs new shocks and struts and it drives jumping up and down.. Air shocks ($2500)
Where is that bridge to jump off when you need it?
My landlord gave me a delay on the rent for 5 months that turned into 6 and plus owe last and security. But the time is now to pay the landlord or be living in my car.
My oncologist sent me finally for my Mastectomy Surgery consult. Am on the waiting list but the pre cancerous are in the same slots as the gene positive women. We keep getting pushed down as there are so many Stage 3 and Stage 4 women coming in. Since my insurance changed I now have a 20% copay and they have a higher for all the MRI's involved for the Surgeries etc. So looking at $6000 just right there.
My main emergency is getting money for my rent to have a place to stay to recuperate from my Mastectomy vs my car with a blind dog.
I just need like 6 kind and angelic souls to help me with a month's rent. Or at least help me find that river.
Thank you for your understanding
