SpousePassedAwayNeedHelp

The picture you see is Matt and I on New Year's Eve.  Matt passed away on May 10th 2023 and I'm just devastated because he was my soulmate.  We work together which is where it happened it was not work related.  He came and got the keys for me to go out to the car started to go out to two steps back sat down on the floor in my room where I was working then said I don't feel good as you sat down and I said what do you mean you don't feel good and he said I don't know I just don't feel good and that was it he was gone.  I have tried to go back to work I work Monday 4 hours Monday of this week I work 6 hours and I tried to go back today and I just couldn't because there's too many memories of him and the workplace so I had to leave my job.  As of right now I do not have employment and I have no income but I do have bills and normally I would not ask help but I am at a loss of what to do.  I am currently updating my resume I've got to go to the library to do it my computer doesn't work right but I'm going to get it updated and apply for jobs but as of right now I have no income to take care of what I need to take care of.  If you can help that would be great if you can't I totally understand life is hard I'm just hoping that somebody will find in the goodness of their heart to help me with this cuz I don't really know where else to turn.  Thank you for looking at my story and reading what I wrote and I hope everybody has a good day remember to tell people that you love that you love them everyday no matter what always tell him and never ever go to bed mad at each other cuz you never know what's going to happen one minute you're fine and then the next you're not.