*AChanceToLiveBeforeIDie

I tried but I can't do this without your help. The end of April 2022 I was diagnosed with a rare sarcoma granular cell tumor. I have cancer throughout my body and as a 31 year old single mother of two I am scared. I am not afraid to die I am afraid of what will follow after my day. I obsess on making thing better today for a tomorrow I will no physically be a part of. As of now, my family is on the verge of being homeless. I am no longer able to work because of my progressive aggressive cancer and  so behind on every expense I have. I can't buy my kids clothing for this coming school year, or fix or register my vehicle to get from point A to B. My bank is overdraft. Everyday stress is shaving my time on earth. I can't live with these stresses and obsessions. I can't focus on what matter NOW because of my anxiety for the future. If I can provide a home for my two little girls. There will be no resting in peace for me. I have spent my entire life helping other to the point  of it physically manifesting. I forgot about me. Now that my life has a time stamp for soon I am so lost and almost hopeless. I've lost myself and my life looking for fulfillment in being a asset to others. Now my life is ending and I realize how ALONE I am. My kids keep asking " mommy when are we getting our own house" I am overwhelmed with guilt because tho I say "soon baby" I know that soon may never come. So I need help. I want to spend my last days happy, Creating memories that can help when my babies are huring and I can't console them.  Please help me live before I die..